Hello

Well I thought it about time to start a blog - not entirely sure what i am supposed to write in here but will use it to rant, scream, shout, cry, laugh, celebrate and share my life with whoever decides to read it.

Life is never easy but this present time seems to be really hard. My husband and i are really struggling to keep our heads above water and although i know we are not the only ones, i still feel very lonely in our struggles.

Problem #1
Maybe i should start at the beggining and explain why we are in such a mess?? its a long story, but here goes. I hope it makes some sense. In August I decided i had enough of my job and started the job hunt. I wanted a little promotion with more money and a better sense of job satisfaction. I really wasnt happy with the job i was in, not the actual work but the management, the team and the things expected of me. I got offered a new job with all the things i wanted, infact probably more and i couldnt believe it, i was soooo excited it felt like i was on top of the world (get the picture??) so I handed my notice in, i even extended the notice period that i gave, they asked me to reconsider and to even stay working for them part time, for evenings and weekend work (too little, too late really). As the time was getting closer to starting my new role I was struggling to get into contact with the new boss and pin her down. Eventually when i did - the thursday before i was due to start on the monday, my world crashed. She explained to me that she could no longer take me on in the role! apparently down to something my previous manager had told her and the reference she had given me!!!!!! I was not impressed as you can probably guess and went straight to the office to have it out with my boss. Anyway cutting a long story short i ended up seeking legal advice and going to the area manager and the manager above him explaining what had happened and letting the cat out of the bag about a few other issues. Anyway after a long investigation infact till only 2 weeks ago, i had heard nothing. Then i got the letter i was waiting for - saying the 'whole thing was completely regretable and unfortuanately he cant turn the clock back' so i was cleared and my reputation sorted.
During all this i was obviously applying for jobs as my husband as much as he would like to cant earn enough money to cover both of our wages. I had a few interviews and a few 'i would love to employ you but unfortunately........' which just sucks.

The good news now at the end of November I have finally been offered 3 jobs! whoop whoop so i have a few decisions to make. will do a seperate blog about them when i have the offer letters infront of me as i dont want to jinx them in anyway.

Problem #2
Obviously me being out of work has resulted in a lot of missed payments and debts continuing to build through charges or missed payments. Lots of crappy phone calls and horrible letters.Its got so bad i am even avoiding answering the door incase it is some sort of baliff. I know it wont be long now but even when i am working again we will have to catch up on ourselfs ontop of paying the debts we already had before all of this.

Problem #3
My poor husband is killing himself trying to keep us from completely drowning some days working 20/21 hours! then doing the same the following day. I feel so sorry for him and I try and do absolutely everything i possibly can to make his life easier for him when he gets home. Its hard though as we are a couple who are fantastic when they are together - but fall apart when they dont see each other. It is also so lonely being at home with out him. There is only so many times you can turn up on your friends door step or think of excuses for them to pop over. Thank God for my dogs.

Problem #4
I was trying to be good, i thought with my time off i could get all the jobs done you put to the back of your mind when you are busy with day to day life, like sorting the cupboards out, going to the dentist, flu jab, smear test, asthma clinic and all the rest of the rubbish that needs doing 'eventually'. Well it worked i got it all done, i just wasnt expecting the results - modereate to severe abnormalities in your smear test result. AAGGGHHHHH panic mode set in and appointment card arrives for test to be done at hospital with treatment and biopsy! well that joyous occasion is this thursday - shit.

Problem #5
hubby being arrested on friday night and kept in cells till saturday evening! there was some trouble at work and yes he probably did lose his temper and the result was not a good thing, but that was delt with. As he was about to be relised on bail the police decided to inform him that he is 'wanted' by the courts in the midlands somewhere!! no chance that cant be right!!! but they say they cant prove or disprove it until monday morning when they make contact with the court - that means keeping him in cells till then!!!!! not a chance so i rush down to the police station with passport, CRB and anything else i could think to let them release him. luckily it worked and it has been proven since then it wasnt him they were after. you'd think that in these modern times they could prove straight away it wasnt him, stupid idiots. Impending bail meeting and possible court case now. GREAT! not.

well i think those 5 things are the biggest ones going round my head right now and kinda gives you a little insite into how my life is right now.

I wonder if anyone will actually read this?? i'm not telling anyone its here so who knows. xxxx