I feel back down at the low point again. I am soooo angry and upset with my marriage right now.Yes i know my hubby has been working hard to bring in the money for us but we also had a really deep conversation at the beggining of the month about making our marriage work and what the things were that made each other 'tick' etc. We said we would be more aware of them and actually put some effort into the relationship.
Today is a prime example of what makes me soo mad and so upset with how my life is right now.
Hubby didnt work last night which was really nice as it meant i had some company at home - or so i thought. He rung me on his way home so i knew he was coming. I thought i would be nice and run a bath for him and cook a really nice homecooked meal for us. So i did all this. I even treated us and brought a bottle of Baileys to have while we chilled infront of the TV.
Hubby fell asleep at 9. hhhhmmmm so much for our evening. I thought well if he sleept then we would have a better day on Sunday. so he slept through till mid day Sunday. We got up and went to town to get the dog food and some bits for the weeks food. Came home i did some lunch and he put the football on.
Our plans for today were to have the afternoon at home and then this evening catch up with some friends. We dont have a lot of money so they were going to come to us, have a few drinks and play on the WII. It was an opportunity to meet the new girlfriend and catch up with some people we havent seen for a while.
So i started finalising the plans and yep - hubby decides hes not in the mood so it isnt happening. The evening is cancelled and we are to stay at home tonight. Great - not.
To top it off while he's 'watching' the football HE FALLS ASLEEP!!!! gggggrrr i go to turn over and he wakes up telling me he's watching it. NOT funny.
So yet again i am in for an evening infront of the tv, lonely , misserable and house trapped. He's snoring on the sofa and shouting at me with every suggestion of doing something.
Is life really supposed to be like this?? Is this what i signed into 4 years ago when i got married?? i thought i was 25 not 55. :( :( :(
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